Just a Kid

They say I’m just a kid

Not even eighteen

Sometimes I feel like a kid

But sometimes 

I feel like an adult

They think I’m immature

I don’t have what it takes

Sometimes I feel broken 

Like I’ve had more than I could take 

Maybe I got too much too soon

They say I’m not ready 

For the real world out there 

Well who’s to tell me what I can take? 

How am I supposed to be ready 

Without going through something?

And given the chance

 I never would have taken this path 

But God gave me the path I’m on

And it forced me to grow 

So maybe I’ve seen more than you think 

And maybe I’m stronger then you know 

And maybe the pain I feel now 

Has shaped me to be like Christ 

And maybe in the moments 

When I lose control of myself 

There is a small piece of my heart 

Wishing that my biggest problem 

Was keeping my temper under control 

And maybe when I cry 

Over the silly things 

It’s because deep down 

I’m longing for my innocence back 

And when I laugh 

I appreciate it more than you think 

Because I’ve known what pain is

You say I’m just a kid 

Not even eighteen

But I thank the Lord 

He allowed me to grow

Without saying I was too young 

1 Timothy 4:12

Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.

Just so ya know, while this poem is based on me, 'they' does not refer to my family at all. My family is the coolest. 

Also, speaking of my family, Happy Birthday to two awesome people.