Your Eyes

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I look in your eyes 

Those lovely blue eyes 

I’ve looked at them so many times 

So many happy smiles held there 

And tears pooling 

I stare into those eyes 

Those lovely blue eyes 

That used to be more familiar then my own 

And my heart falters 

As I realize 

I don’t recognize them anymore 

July Highlights

This month was one of the most hectic, crazy, and amazing months this year. I find it hard to put it all into words.

My siblings and I got into a board game called Pandemic and it has now been played dozens of times this month.

Well, this month I turned 19,  and my family threw me a great family party! My dad took me out to breakfest (best. breakfest. ever.), we had spagetti for lunch (My favorite. We have it almost every week, but I love it so much), and played games. We had s'mores, and just enjoyed hanging out. My sister and I took a late night walk and saw fireworks (We celabrated on the forth). Overall, pretty awesome day. =)

My siblings and I playing Pandemic

I edited my Sci-fi novel Flight from Kelar twice this month, sort of. Once I went through and marked it up with highlighters (Which was pretty awesome), and then the second time I was implenting all the notes. My family bought be sweet tea from Sonic on multaple occasions and helped fuel my work. I managed to get the whole thing done and I added six thousand words. I am pretty happy with how that turned out. =)

Rebekkah and I

I got a hang out with the most awesome mom in the universe. She took me out to Panera (a rare treat) and we got a library card. We found a new purity ring for me since I lost my old one. We packed so many things in, and finished it off by having fried tortillas (I can't spell their name, sorry) and getting honey all over our fingers. <3

I got to throw a surprise party for my sister! That was just about the best. =D

Three of our five cars broke. O.o (Yes, we have five. Nine people live here.) We've got one fixed and the other two being worked on! 

My sister and I entered the Illyon Cronicles contest. We had a blast making a costume and taking photos! We didn't end up placing, but it was really fun anyway! 

This was our entery into the contest

We said goodbye to our old couch Sang B&TB while polishing the floors 

I played ping pong with a little four year old girl named Rylee. She wanted to try it with a bouncey ball. We nearly demolished the room, but we had fun. Little hugs are the best. 

I tried my hand at making kolaches with my sister Rebekkah. They turned out really good. =D

My sister and I got to babysit the best kids for a night. I got to draw pictures for them, hide during hide and seek, listen to kid stories, read books, and tuck them in for the night. I used to think I didn't like kids, but I think my carrerr as a babysitter has proved me wrong. 

My favorite book was The Robe followed, but other then the Nancy Drew Diary book, I loved them all!

Cover Reveal Jaye L. Knight 

Moving on A Farm Girl's Life

3... 2... 1... Write A Storynerds Life

Right Isn't Easy A Purpose and a Promise

It Feel's Just a Bit Like Hope Tottally Graced

Get To Know Me Tag The Left-Handed Typest

The Great Summer TBR Sunshine and Scribblings 

Overall, it was a great month. I am ejoying a break from the stress of camp though. 

Three Words

It’s weighing on my chest

Pressing me down

Choking me

As I know it will have to

Because it has to come up

I have to say the words

I’ve said them so many times

But I’m not ready to do it again

I’m not ready

My heart beats faster

Yet it seems to stop as well

My lips part as I try to say the words

But my head screams at me to stop

We shouldn’t have to say these words

So many times

But we are saying them again

The words are spoken

Whispered in a husky voice

Something dies inside of me

My heart stops completely

I feel empty

Just because of three words

“Goodbye, dear friend.”

I wrote this awhile back but decided to post it for a friend who is having to say a hard goodbye right now. 

Dreams

This is esentally an acompanment poem to Tuesday's post.

Tonight I’m tired 

I’m tired of being tired

I’m tired of a dream 

That I never thought I would be 

I love making words flow 

I love doing this 

But I didn’t realize it meant this 

The light night exhaustion

The days of giving up things 

The pushing through the haze 

This is not what I thought it would be 

But somehow I love it anyway 

I am tired of chasing my dream 

But even through the exhaustion

I feel the joy of the journey welling inside of me 

I get to chaise my dream 

I have the privilege  

To chaise my dream 

I get to work late at night 

I get to choose what I do 

God helps me push through the haze 

God gave me this crazy dream 

And now He’s helping me chaise it 

Sometimes it’s not 

The dream I thought it would be 

This is the part where dreams 

Meet the pavement 

But I’m not stopping 

Oh not tonight 

I’ve got a dream 

And I’m chasing it 

Where Dreams Meet the Pavement

My Monday posts have kind of morphed into Tuesday posts. I wish I could say this was on purpose, but this mainly has to do with my crazy schedule. 

This month has been mainly filled with Camp NaNoWriMo. My goal is to edit my novel, Flight from Kelar. This is turning out to be a much more time consuming project them I thought. I finished the really fun part, getting to mark it all up with highlighters and make notes. Now I'm onto the harder task of putting these notes in the compter and typing them up. I'm currently way behind on my goal. But you know what? I'm loving this. This is where the dream meet pavement. 

Aside from editing, I've honestly have not been up to much. 

I have been working very slowly through my stack of books from the library and enjoying every minute of it. Seriously, now that reading time is harder to find, I'm craving it like crazy. After two months of not buying books (I was trying to break a bad habit of stress buying) I finally got a couple new books. I decided to get all books I had never read so I bought two books to finish off a series I love and a midle grade book a lot of my friends recomended. 

So yeah, that's a little update on my life. How are your projects going? Tell me what your reading!

I realize this is a rather disjointed post (Mostly due to the fact that I'm writing it WAY to late at night) but I felt like I owed y'all an update.