Friday, September 16, 2016

The Me You Want Me To Be



I wrote this on Tuesday. I thought maybe y'all might like it, so here it is.




I want to be the person you made me to be

Not this self-invented fake I’ve made of me 

I build the fake in every way

I build it with every lie I say

And how I try to make them think I’m alright

And that I’m not losing a fight

I try to hid the brokenness inside

And all the hurt and pride

I try to make the outside of me clean

And make it presentable to be seen

It’s the best scheme I can contrive

Because it seems like I have to do that to survive

There’s too much hurt to face all the pain

It hurts so bad I think its driving me insane

Because sometimes I forget

That you’re not finished with me yet

You don’t care if I am a mess

You don’t mind all the stress

You don’t mind if I look a sight

Or if I harbor a lot of fright

Because you’re willing to start working with me now

To show me how to me healed and how,

To be cleaned from the inside out


To get rid of all the doubt

Because you never made me to be broken

You meant me to be whole sense before my first word was spoken


You want to clean all the pain from me

And make me the me you want me to be

And I must admit I want it to

If only to see what you will do

Because I know you have a plan that is great,

And it is definitely worth the wait.


16 comments:

  1. That's beautiful, Mikayla! You should write poetry more often. :)

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    1. Thank you so much! Aww, thanks! I will try.
      -Mikayla-

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  2. This was beautiful, Mikayla! Great job! Poetry is really fun to write :).

    ~ Savannah
    scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you, Savannah! Yes it is! Do you write much poetry?
      -Mikayla-

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    2. I do occasionally - I recently posted one on my blog and enjoyed writing it a lot (though writing it took a good deal of brain power for me :D).

      ~ Savannah
      scattered-scribblings.blogspot.com

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    3. Thats awesome! =D Yeah, poetry can be a lot of fun to write, even though it does take a lot of brainpower. ;D Do you ever use WordHippo.com when writing poetry? I LOVE that site. =)
      -Mikayla-

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  3. Ouuuch my heart.
    This is SO BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING I CAN'T EVEN FIND WORDS TO DO IT JUSTICE. Seriously, I didn't just like this, I LOVED it. <3

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    1. I didn't mean to hurt your heart! ;)
      Thank you!! I'm so glad you loved it!!
      Thank you for reading!
      -Mikayla-

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  4. I can relate to this so much, Mikayla. This is very inspiring, as always.

    Have a great weekend!

    With love and all joy,
    Allie D.
    www.alliesblogdesigns.blogspot.com
    www.friendlovesatalltimes.blogspot.com
    www.sincerelyallied.blogspot.com
    www.spreadingmyjoy.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you! I really aprechiate it!
      -Mikayla-

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  5. So convicting and true. Keep writing Mikayla. You are touching lives.

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