Friday, September 21, 2018

Discovering Purpose

I sit on the floor 
Starring at the stove 
My phone in my lap 
Text thread open 
Asking what I’ve been doing
As I sit 
I try to tally up 
What my life has amounted to 
What I’ve done worth counting 
What I’ve said worth repeating 
Goals of a child still live in me 
But that doesn’t amount to a purpose 
As I review it all 
One question keeps coming up 
What did God put me here for? 
What was I born to do? 
I have some things I’d like do to 
But does that amount to a purpose? 
Questions swirl 
Blurring out everything else 
I don’t see the room around me 
All I see is the years of being dormant 
Not moving towards anything 
Maybe I can’t find my goal 
Because it’s been right in front of me 
Maybe my purpose is discovered 
One step at a time 
Doing the tasks in front of me 
And piece by piece discovering 
What I was meant to do
I sit on the kitchen floor 
With determination building 
I’ve got an adventure 
Right in front of me

Saturday, September 15, 2018

I'm Offically Back!

River near us that is overflowing because of all the rain

Hello everyone! It's not one of my regular posting days, but I guess that doesn't really matter. These day's even I find it interesting to see what day I actually end up posting on. Even though I did my highlights, I ended up taking a month-long break from all other posts, which was very nice. 

I wish I could say I got a lot done while I was gone, but I didn't really. I worked on cleaning out my email inbox (It's been cluttered for weeks). I've been working through a course on how to improve my blog and I've been really enjoying that and I've been hanging with my family. Life's been pretty good. I did miss being present here on the blog and interacting with y'all, but now I feel much more prepared to dive back in. 

To be honest, I'm still feeling pretty creatively dry, but I feel like at this point I need to just push through and try to get back into the swing of it. I've got a list of projects that need to get done (Some super exciting ones that I'm eager to share with y'all soon!) and I'm trying my best to get back into them.  
I'm gearing up for NaNoWriMo (yes, I know, a bit early) by beginning to plot my novel. I do not normally plot books (this will actually be my first time) but since it is book two of three in a trilogy I feel like it needs to have a really solid plot. So y'all will probably be hearing about that for a while. I am a fairly visual planner so you might get pictures of my planning process. 

 I am going to attemt to get back to my Monday & Friday posting, but I might still miss a few days as I get back into the swing of things.

So, I feel like it has been forever, what have y'all been up to? Are you getting ready for NaNo?

Wednesday, September 5, 2018

August Highlights

Well, here were are in September. August wasn't my best month, but I did really enjoy having some time to re-focus on why I blog. I'll share more about that later. 

Every Wednesday I go for a bike ride down to a church four miles from our house, and I always lock up my bike. Well, I came out and tried to undo it, only to find it stuck. The pastor came out and tried his best to unlock, but finally, my dad had to come and cut through the lock for me. Luckily it was a cheap one, and pretty easy to cut.

We surprised my mom by taking her out to lunch one day and then taking her to a museum nearby. This was a huge highlight of my month because they have a big section on space and I had a blast looking at it all. 

I was having a bad day, so my sister Grace stayed up late playing a game of Pandemic (a cooperative board game) with me. 

I had a lot of movie party's with my siblings in August. With everything from Bionic Woman, to High School Musical, to Star Trek, it was an eclectic month. But it was awesome.

For the first time in my life, I got to go to my first water park. All my sisters, my mom and I all went for the day and had an absolutely amazing time. It was a small park but packed full. I went down the tube slides a TON and thankfully only got a mild sunburn on my face.

I got to go on glass bottom boats! This was a really fun experience of actually getting to see under the water and all the life down there. A turtle even followed underneath us for a while. 

I got sick so I spent a whole day listening to "A Name Unknown" by Roseanna M. White and playing computer games. Thus I listened to eight hours of it in one day and about five the next. O.o

My cat nuzzled me awake one morning. Best. wakeup. call. ever.

I got caught up on book reviews this month by writing seven in one day. Those reviews pile up so fast. 

My favorite was A Name Unknown. 
Oops Bess's Bit of Treasure
Guess What I Got Writing is Life
A Trip to the Country Fair A Farm Girls Life
A Bad Dream Woke Me Up A Storynerds Life
Summer '18 Life Update Sunshine and Scribbles
Mid Year Book Freak Out Tag Stories By Firefly

How was your month? What was your top book of August?

Monday, August 13, 2018

Creatively Dry

Well, some of you may have noticed how scetchy I've been with getting my blog posts up (If you didn't, that's 100% fine. I don't keep up with anybody's blogging schedule). There have been a lot of light night postings, and poetry thrown up without a glance to make sure spelling is corrected. (Who am I kidding, I never do this anyway)
Honestly, I've really missed sitting down like this and spending quality time on a blog post. I've felt rather creativly dry, and running to keep up with everything. Camp NaNo this year was amazing, but super time consuming.
So this is my rambly way of telling you that I am going to take a break from blogging. I think I should be back in about two weeks, but I don't know. I'll definitly be back for my August Highlight's post. 
I'll still be here to reply to comments, and comment on other blogs though. =)
I'll see y'all then, okay? Enjoy the rest of your month! 

Saturday, August 11, 2018

Choose Your Own Ending

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Hello everyone! Today I’m taking part in Sarah Holman’s, Choose Your Own Story, event. This is to celebrate the release of her latest book, Escape and Endurance (In this event, you get to pick the outcome of the story by making choices. A lot of different things can happen. What are you waiting for? Start your adventure by clicking the image below.

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Sir Andrew dropped his hands to his side and was about to move toward her when the princess spun around and pushed him into the room. Before he had time to react, the princess had locked the door. She laughed.

“Did you really think that I would be so easy to persuade.”
“Let me out.”
She laughed and walked away. 
It took a while, but Andrew finally succeeded in breaking down the door. He returned to the castle only to find the princess had arrived before him and spread the tale of what she had done. 
In the end, he supposed that he was the one to learn a lesson: Never trust a princess.

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Are you interested in reading about a knight, a tower, a princess, and a servant? Pick up a copy of Escape and Endurance! Haven’t read the other books in the Tales of Taelis series? Not to worry. Each book can stand alone.

About Sarah:

Displaying 111 Author - closer.JPGSarah Holman is a not-so-typical girl, a homeschool graduate, sister to six awesome siblings, and lives in the great state of Texas. If there’s anything adventuresome about her life, it’s because she serves a God with a destiny greater than anything she could have imagined. You can find out more about her at her website:
You can join the Adventurers (her newsletter) by going here:

Thank you all for joing us!

Friday, August 10, 2018

Your Eyes

Photo by JC Gellidon on Unsplash

I look in your eyes 
Those lovely blue eyes 
I’ve looked at them so many times 
So many happy smiles held there 
And tears pooling 
I stare into those eyes 
Those lovely blue eyes 
That used to be more familiar then my own 
And my heart falters 
As I realize 
I don’t recognize them anymore 

Tuesday, August 7, 2018

July Highlights

This month was one of the most hectic, crazy, and amazing months this year. I find it hard to put it all into words.

My siblings and I got into a board game called Pandemic and it has now been played dozens of times this month.

Well, this month I turned 19,  and my family threw me a great family party! My dad took me out to breakfest (best. breakfest. ever.), we had spagetti for lunch (My favorite. We have it almost every week, but I love it so much), and played games. We had s'mores, and just enjoyed hanging out. My sister and I took a late night walk and saw fireworks (We celabrated on the forth). Overall, pretty awesome day. =)

My siblings and I playing Pandemic

I edited my Sci-fi novel Flight from Kelar twice this month, sort of. Once I went through and marked it up with highlighters (Which was pretty awesome), and then the second time I was implenting all the notes. My family bought be sweet tea from Sonic on multaple occasions and helped fuel my work. I managed to get the whole thing done and I added six thousand words. I am pretty happy with how that turned out. =)

Rebekkah and I
I got a hang out with the most awesome mom in the universe. She took me out to Panera (a rare treat) and we got a library card. We found a new purity ring for me since I lost my old one. We packed so many things in, and finished it off by having fried tortillas (I can't spell their name, sorry) and getting honey all over our fingers. <3

I got to throw a surprise party for my sister! That was just about the best. =D

Three of our five cars broke. O.o (Yes, we have five. Nine people live here.) We've got one fixed and the other two being worked on! 

My sister and I entered the Illyon Cronicles contest. We had a blast making a costume and taking photos! We didn't end up placing, but it was really fun anyway! 

This was our entery into the contest

We said goodbye to our old couch Sang B&TB while polishing the floors 

I played ping pong with a little four year old girl named Rylee. She wanted to try it with a bouncey ball. We nearly demolished the room, but we had fun. Little hugs are the best. 

I tried my hand at making kolaches with my sister Rebekkah. They turned out really good. =D

My sister and I got to babysit the best kids for a night. I got to draw pictures for them, hide during hide and seek, listen to kid stories, read books, and tuck them in for the night. I used to think I didn't like kids, but I think my carrerr as a babysitter has proved me wrong. 

My favorite book was The Robe followed, but other then the Nancy Drew Diary book, I loved them all!

Cover Reveal Jaye L. Knight 
Moving on A Farm Girl's Life
3... 2... 1... Write A Storynerds Life
Right Isn't Easy A Purpose and a Promise
Get To Know Me Tag The Left-Handed Typest
The Great Summer TBR Sunshine and Scribblings 

Overall, it was a great month. I am ejoying a break from the stress of camp though. 

Friday, August 3, 2018

Three Words

It’s weighing on my chest
Pressing me down
Choking me
As I know it will have to
Because it has to come up
I have to say the words
I’ve said them so many times
But I’m not ready to do it again
I’m not ready
My heart beats faster
Yet it seems to stop as well
My lips part as I try to say the words
But my head screams at me to stop
We shouldn’t have to say these words
So many times
But we are saying them again
The words are spoken
Whispered in a husky voice
Something dies inside of me
My heart stops completely
I feel empty
Just because of three words
“Goodbye, dear friend.”

I wrote this awhile back but decided to post it for a friend who is having to say a hard goodbye right now. 

Friday, July 27, 2018


This is esentally an acompanment poem to Tuesday's post.

Tonight I’m tired 
I’m tired of being tired
I’m tired of a dream 
That I never thought I would be 
I love making words flow 
I love doing this 
But I didn’t realize it meant this 
The light night exhaustion
The days of giving up things 
The pushing through the haze 
This is not what I thought it would be 
But somehow I love it anyway 
I am tired of chasing my dream 
But even through the exhaustion
I feel the joy of the journey welling inside of me 
I get to chaise my dream 
I have the privilege  
To chaise my dream 
I get to work late at night 
I get to choose what I do 
God helps me push through the haze 
God gave me this crazy dream 
And now He’s helping me chaise it 
Sometimes it’s not 
The dream I thought it would be 
This is the part where dreams 
Meet the pavement 
But I’m not stopping 
Oh not tonight 
I’ve got a dream 
And I’m chasing it 

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Where Dreams Meet the Pavement

My Monday posts have kind of morphed into Tuesday posts. I wish I could say this was on purpose, but this mainly has to do with my crazy schedule. 

This month has been mainly filled with Camp NaNoWriMo. My goal is to edit my novel, Flight from Kelar. This is turning out to be a much more time consuming project them I thought. I finished the really fun part, getting to mark it all up with highlighters and make notes. Now I'm onto the harder task of putting these notes in the compter and typing them up. I'm currently way behind on my goal. But you know what? I'm loving this. This is where the dream meet pavement. 

Aside from editing, I've honestly have not been up to much. 

I have been working very slowly through my stack of books from the library and enjoying every minute of it. Seriously, now that reading time is harder to find, I'm craving it like crazy. After two months of not buying books (I was trying to break a bad habit of stress buying) I finally got a couple new books. I decided to get all books I had never read so I bought two books to finish off a series I love and a midle grade book a lot of my friends recomended. 

So yeah, that's a little update on my life. How are your projects going? Tell me what your reading!

I realize this is a rather disjointed post (Mostly due to the fact that I'm writing it WAY to late at night) but I felt like I owed y'all an update. 

Friday, July 20, 2018


It's a rather ominous word 
Its a hopeful word 
It holds everything we will be 
And everything we will do 
Its unattainable in a way 
But also you are living it 
It is what you dreamed of 
Yet it's not 
It's where God already is 
He is in your present 
He promises it will all be 
For your ultimate good
Leads us nearer and nearer 
Always one step closer 
To eternity with Christ 
It is all building towards then 
Is endless 
But we must build it 
Store up treasures for it 
Build relationships for it
Is forever 
And it is held by the One 
Who took the nails 
So you could spend it with Him

This is probably one of my favorite poems I have written all year.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018

The 777 Writing Challenge

Deborah over at The Road of a Writer tagged me to do this challenge and it looked really fun, so I thought I'd give it a go! 

1. Open your WIP to the seventh page
2. Scroll past the seventh line
3. Copy the next seven paragraphs and paste them on your blog for THE WORLD to read
4. Tag seven people

Now I actually do not have any books I am writing right now (I'm editing) so I did this for two books I wrote last year. 

Andrea's Star
“I need you to trust me.” He said quickly. It seemed like it had been stored up inside so long it just burst out without him even trying.

I didn't respond. With mom, I knew what to say, with dad... it just ran too deep to say anything anymore. 

“Katie, I know I've hurt you...”

My heart skipped a beat as I gripped the arms of the chair “Don't call me that.” I hissed. I never wanted to hear that name again.

I fixed my gaze on my lap, but I heard my dad sigh.

“I want to be there for you.” His voice was gentle.

What I've Become
Jerold put his hand to his forehead and touched blood, no doubt from his run in with the rocks. He gritted his teeth, “Its nothing.”

“Clearly it is something.”

Jerold schooled his features as best he could and shrugged. Not wanting to talk any long, he turned and walked briskly around the building. Not responding to the older mans sigh from behind him.

The evening air bit at his bare hands as he pulled his cap low over his eyes, protecting him from the unwanted stair of strangers. He balled his fists and put them in his coat pockets.

He kept his gaze on the familiar sidewalks; he knew every inch of them from having walked with his head down so much.

Soon he came to the part he knew better than them all. Jerold lifted his head enough to unlatch the pealing gate. Paint chips came off onto his hand as he did.

 From the porch a girl, not much younger then himself, came flying down the path and threw herself into his arms. Her brown hair was tucked into a loose braid that fell all the way to her waist. 

Well, that was fun! If you want to do this tag, feel free to, and please link your post below so I can see it!

Friday, July 13, 2018

One Hour

Photo by ALP STUDIO on Unsplash
One hour
Tick tock
Does it really make a difference
Did I do anything worth speaking?
Did I spend the time well?
Or will I learn after all
That I wasted it?
I don’t want to live
With a mind set on things of earth
I want my heart to be set
On my eternal home
I’ll be there in a blink of an eye
But for right now
One hour is more important
Then I had ever thought before
Was what I was doing really worth it
And will hevan be better for it?
Tick tock

Just food for thought.

Monday, July 9, 2018

June Highlights

Hello! I know this post is late, but I thought better late then never! ;)

I finally finished watching Five Mile Creek. I have to admit, I did not like the last season at all, and the ending was very disapointng. =/

My dog an I went on a couple adventures this month. Mostly we chaised sunsets, and enjoyed the summer solstice. He's a really good gaurd dog, so it's nice to have him along for walks. 

I got my haircut. This is the shortest I've ever had it and i'm liking it, but also missing long hair.

I began a new round of edits on Flight from Kelar which involes me pulling out all my highlighters and marking up the printed pages until they look like a rainbow. It's been going surprisingly well.

A church just down the road is having a movie party every week, so I've been biking down. It's been pretty fun. So far none of the movies have been incredible, but I love hanging out with people.

Willow City releesed their new album! I was really excited about this, since we were part of the kickstarter campain. =D

I watched "I can Only Imagine." Wasn't overly impressed, but I did like it.

I reviewed my one and only Beatheny House book. Yep, they just changed their reviewer program, and I didn't bother re-signing up because I wasn't seeing a lot that I wanted to read anyway. Anyway, I am now in search of another reviewer program, so if you are a part of one, drop me a comment about it.

I drowned my phone. Like it sat in water for about twenty minutes drowned. But somehow it survived unscathed (Praise God!). I also drowned my sisters phone. It survived to.

I was in Sam's and they had a vending machine where you scanned your club card and you got a free candy sample. I got so excited. XD

The Cortship of the Vicers Doughter was my favorite from this month and Together forgever was my least. 
Verbs Burning Youth
Of Broken Things Writing is Life
Window Fellow Stories by Firefly 
Sweet Summertime Totally Graced
Your Life Matters Lauren Elizabeth 
(Don't) Walk Away A Purpose and a Promise
When an Overachiever Rebels Adventure Awaits

My June was pretty awesome. Not perfect (Like always) but good. 
What was your favorite book you read in June?