Hello everyone! Its been a rather long two weeks of silence. But it was good.
I don't know if you knew this; but I'm an extremist. I ether love or hate for the most part. I get easily pulled into debates because I feel that people are standing to much in the middle ground. But this blog has been my middle ground. I choose to blog about what I felt comfortable with. I haven't felt scared when I hit that publish button for months. I have blogged about what I knew would get a nice response and what I wouldn't have to dig to much into my messy side.
But the truth is I'm a messy, messy human being. Sometimes I feel like all I do is fall flat on my face. And what I did this time was make a blog all about me. I have built this blog so focused around me and the attention it got. I have long since lost focus of why I was doing it.
The truth is that I care a lot about y'all. Even though my blogging hasn't reflected it as much as I want it to, the thing that keeps me coming back is y'all. I want to make a difference.
During my break I looked at some of my favorite blogs and started thinking about why they were my favorites.
All of them had things in conman:
1. The bloggers are very strong Christians
2. They posted about their life in an encouraging way
3. They were honest about their mistakes
I want to be like that. I don't feel like I've failed completely, but I know I haven't been giving my all to this blog.
So what am I going to do about it? Honestly, I'm not entirely sure. I've spent two weeks praying abut this and brainstorming. I do have some ideas but what they all boil down to is that I need to live every day, all day, all in for God. Not just in my blogging, but in my everyday life.
I don't know where I'm going but I know what I'm reaching for.
So I'm back. Hopefully better then before.
Thanks for sticking with me.
(Also this was my 500'th post!)