Link to My New Blog

Hello everyone! I'm here with exciting news! I am finally ready to share the link to my new blog!!

So here it is, you can follow the link, or click on the image.

http://mikaylaholman.blogspot.com/

Starting Tuesday I will be duel posting on both Ordinary Girl, Extraordinary Father, and Mikaya Holman. I will do this to give everyone a chance to move over to the new blog. 

I am so excited about this change, and I pray it is for the better. Will you go on over and tell me what you think?

I Used to be the Best (Or at least I thought so)

I used to be the best. Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I was on my blog. I had it down pat. Procrastinate until the last minute, then scurry around and slap something up on the blog just in time. But, I did it. I never missed a post, not really.

I used to be the best. Every Tuesday and Thursday, I would very faithfully do the kitchen. In our house, that means all dishes, cleaning, and meal prep. I was good at it. I rarely ever needed help, and I really prided myself on that.

I used to be the best. I would always reply to emails the day I received them. I replied to letters the next day, and I always sent people prompt birthday gifts.

I used to be the best. I mean, what could be so hard about slapping stories onto paper? I would just sit down, and write stories. I could pound out 20k in a month and have a decently well-rounded story.

There is one problem with being the best. At least there was for me. One day, I wasn't. I don't know what happened along the way, but I think it was something called reality. That reality didn't hit for a long time, but one day I looked up and realized what had been coming on slowly for a very long time.

I was no longer posting three times a week. Or two. I was struggling to post once.

My kitchen days were looking a little dirtier, and a bit more sloppily done.

Emails sat in my inbox for weeks, letters even longer. I even missed a couple birthdays.

I struggled to get words on paper.

At eighteen I came to the conclusion that probably should have come much earlier in my life: I was not the best and I never had been. 

I failed in a lot of the areas I prided myself most at. Some of them a lot more serious then I've mentioned here. And once I hit that bottom where I saw all the places I had failed, I realized something: I'm okay with not being the best.

I did hit a point once where I just wondered why I should even try if I couldn't be the best. But God's been showing me a lot lately that He doesn't call me to be the best or to never fail, He wants me to follow Him.

I know that I am not done with this struggle, but at least for now, I'm okay with not being the best. I'm okay with not being the most amazing friend or writer, or blogger. I am content to just try my very best, and rely on God's strength to keep me on track. He wants me to follow Him, and I'm learning more about that now than I ever did when I thought I had everything together. 

I am not the best. And I am okay with that.

The Stone Was Rolled Away

Photo by Bruno van der Kraan on Unsplash

Joseph was set free from the pit 

The Israelites were set free from their captivity 

They made it to the promised land 

Jerico's walls came tumbling down

Their foes were defeated 

David's sins were forgiven 

Solomon was given the wisdom he asked for 

Ester helped secure the lives of a whole race 

God sent messengers to His people 

Jesus healed everyone who asked

The stone was rolled away 

Jesus raised to life 

He left his spirit 

And He's coming back

God likes happy endings. Don't worry. Sunday's on the way.

Just Dance

Dance

Just dance 

The walls are falling down 

Dance between the pieces 

As they crack apart 

Jump to avoid falling. 

Tiptoe over the delicate parts 

Twirl to avoid looking down

Spin with your face turned to the sky 

Put your arms out for balance 

Vault over the missing places 

Dance 

Just dance 

Don’t make this a trail of tears 

You can cry some of those to 

But make this a dance of victory 

A bending to His will 

A place to find new joy 

And discover where He wants you next 

Dance 

Just dance 

You can cry 

And mourn the wall falling down

But its destined to fall 

And you can either run 

Bolting across them in fear 

And in pain 

Or you can dance 

Choosing to decided that the One 

Who built the wall 

Has decided it’s coming down 

And there are better things waiting 

When you come to the other end 

Dance

Just dance 

If you fall 

You may just discover 

That He’ll make it so

You can fly 

March Highlights

Hello everyone! It's nice to be back! March was a hectic month, full of ups and downs. I also flew halfway across the country to spend a week with friends in Georgia. 

My babysitting job at the church is over for the season. It was a good semester, and I can't wait till my job comes back in the fall. <3

I finished designing the new blog. I'm almost ready to switch over!

I went to Whataburger with Rebekkah for breakfast one day. We listened to Bible and colored together. It was awesome.  

Flying back home

It also got warm enough that we were able to take a lot of walks! 

I got a haircut. So now it's back up the length it was last July. 

We got a tiny little puppy, Belle. We don't quite know what breed she is, but we're thinking Mini Aussie, with maybe a bit of Border Collie in her. 

My sister was in a wreck. The car was totaled, but praise be to God, neither of my sisters in the car were hurt. 

Toccoa Falls

Out kayaking 

Julia, me, and Jessica

I went on my Georgia trip.

Some trip highlights include: 

1. Spending six hours of travel time in the air, at airports, and getting my last Whataburger before I left Texas. 

2. Going to dinner with the lovely Hailey Hudson. (She is awesome) 

3. Getting adopted by my friend's cat (She took a lot of naps with me) 

4. Finally getting to see Toccoa Falls college.

5. Kayaking for the very first time (I loved it!!)

6. Hiking Tallulah Gorge. 1000+ stairs and worth every one of them. 

7. Little Ceasers pizza and Hallmark movies. 

8. Metting up with my friend Aubri (And staying at her house for the last two days of my trip) 

9. Getting to see Red Pandas again (Three of them!!) 

10. Flying out in the early morning. Which was nothing short of magical. 

11. Being met by my family, figuring out my sister had taken off work so she could come greet me, and being taken to Whataburger to celebrate being home. 

The trip wasn't perfect, it had some hard points, but it was good. It was a very mixed month for a lot of reasons, but I was insanely blessed to be able to do the things I did

I had a lot of time to read this month because of my trip. So my favorite (aside from Dear Mr. Knightly which was my sixth re-read) was Kiera. This was my first time reading the corrected version and it was beautiful! I pretty much liked everything I read this month!

Still I Grow on Sunshine and Joy

Weathered Wood A Farm Girls Life

Time Management Stories by Firefly 

I Forgot How to Write Elizabeth Anne

Jack and Other Pictures I've Promised Once upon the Ordinary