Not in my own strength
Sometimes you don't realize what your motivations were until its to late. This week I have had a hard lesson in wrong motivations. Unfortunately a lot of my acts have been just on the edge, so that to everyone else, it looked like I have good motivations, but I knew I didn't. Only it took me until now, really looking back at my week to realize it.
Monday I tried rock climbing for the first time. That was awesome, but there was one wall I could not get to the top over. It was to hard. I would get about halfway up to a part where it curved out, and I simply did not have the strength to get over. I tried five times, but could not do it.
I thought at the time that I was doing it all five times just for a challenge, but really thinking about it, I know I was doing hoping to show off. I wanted to be able to say I had conquered it. Now I thank God I did not get over it. It would have only served to expand my already too large ego.
I've done so many things this week, hoping to further myself in my own strength and I have failed miserably. But you know what? That's okay because it helped me refocus on God and really try to rely on His strength, not mine.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
To God be the glory!