I'm just going to be mad

I’m just going to be mad.

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“Refrain from anger and turn from wrath.” Psalm 37:8

I felt like Scrooge with two overly nice people on either side of me, part of me wanted to join in on the conversation but no I was going to be mad. I could feel myself hunching up, I didn't want to hear one more word but I couldn't ignore it, if I listened I knew my madness would melt away and I didn't want it to. I wanted to be mad I wanted to be miserable. Even when they asked me a question I remained silent. I wanted them to be mad, I wanted them to know how mad I was but they stayed as happy and chipper as ever. So I decided to make sure they did know.      

 “Why are ya’ll so happy? I’m not having any fun!” I said in a haughty tone.                                  

“I’m sorry, what do you want to talk about?”                                                                        

This was not what I wanted, I wanted this to silence them and for us all to be mad together, so I remained silent.                                            

“Do you want to play a game?”

“No I don’t want to play a game, I don’t want to do anything!’ I yelled knowing I was being way over dramatic.

“I’m sorry, then we’ll just go talk over there.” she said and they both walked away.

I wanted to run after them and say I was sorry too, but that would mean I wouldn't be mad anymore and I didn't want to stop being mad so I ran into the forest

“They’ll probably have more fun without me.” I thought madly. “Maybe they’ll come begging me to play, but of course I would say no.”

Nope I was just going to be mad.

“Hi!”  Said a very happy voice.

Oh great here’s yet another happy person I don’t want to be around.

“What do you want?” I asked glaring at her.

“I just came to see how you were doing.”

I could feel my madness melting away and I didn't like it, but I couldn't help it her smile was so big and her eyes were lit up with happiness so I just had to smile back. As we talked my madness melted away and was replaced by happiness. By then end of the conversation I could even remember why I had been mad about.  

                     

I don’t know about you, but I’ve felt like this a lot, I just want to be mad, I just don’t want to be happy I just want to sulk and then something happens {Oh something shinny!} and I forget all about be mad. Happiness and forgiveness are two of the happiest feelings in the world, thankfully my family has helped me experience both. “Do not let the sun go down on your anger.” Ephesians 4:26  

 -Mikayla-

This is a post a wrote up just for fun about a year and a half ago and in was posted on MOHL. :D I found it and decided to re-post it for ya'll. :)