Friday, May 15, 2015

Food For Thought #16

In which I have no conclusion to this story.



With every new week seems to come another new thing I need to work on in my life. This week it was really hard. I snapped at one of my siblings, then realized it was becoming a habit. Then I kind of looked at my behavior in general and realized somewhere in the past month (maybe longer) I have slipped into a lot of bad habits. Habits that will just keep getting worse and worse if I don’t work on them. Looking back, I realize that the problems I’m having weren’t all started with one decision, I've made a lot of really little decisions that have kept getting bigger until I finally came to see them clearly this week. It wasn't that I wasn't aware that my self-control was not at its best, but it just hadn't registered what I was doing to myself until I saw some of the effects of it.

Last night I was almost in tears thinking of all the things I needed to work on in my life. Including, but not limited to; Self-control, honesty, patience, pride, and anger. So yeah, when I started thinking of all the stupid things I had done I got pretty overwhelmed. I have always known that I’m flawed, but being able to remember, in just the past few days, a slew of things I have done to prove each of the above faults was getting worse was hard. 

So I laid in my bed and prayed about each one of them. I cannot say I felt like they were all taken care of, but I did feel much more at peace about it. Today, I worked at doing better in each one. And tomorrow I will do the same, and I probably will continue for a good long time. 

So, yes, as you already know I’m very flawed. But for the first time in weeks I really feel like I’m doing something to work against the temptations. 

-Mikayla-

6 comments:

  1. So glad you're feeling encouraged, Mikayla! That makes it a lot easier to keep going, I know! Keep trying, don't give up!

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    1. You know me, I wouldn't give up for anything. =D
      Thank you so much for the sweet comment!
      -Mikayla-

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  2. Yeah! I can understand how you feel - thinking about all of our flaws and struggles can be overwhelming! :P Keep up the good fight (if you want a good song about that particular subject, just type in 'Good Fight' by Unspoken and you'll have found one...) ;), keep giving it over to the Lord (we tend to take our struggles back onto ourselves even when we shouldn't, it seems!), and keep working at it, Mikayla! Not too long ago I gave something over to God I was struggling with and it's already gotten so much better! He works behind the scenes... :) ;)

    Love,
    Micaiah

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    1. Thanks Micaiah! I will look up that song first chance I get! T
      Thank you so much for your comment!
      -Mikayla-

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    2. Hey, Mikayla! I nominated you on my blog for the Bookshelf Tag! (Hope you can do it!)http://adventuresbeyondthehorizon.blogspot.com/2015/05/bookshelf-tag.html

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    3. Thank you so much Micaiah, I will deffanatly get to it. =D

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