Sometimes I act like I don't care.
I do it all the time. Something happens that really hurts me and I act like it never bothered me. Now this is great sometimes, but today I have to admit something that really bothers me about my life.
I'm not ahead.
My last Friday post was about we need not to worry when others were ahead of you, because you are right where you need to be.
I wrote that post because I needed to be reminded of it. I tried to be okay with not being as ahead as some people, but it seems like this week has conspired against me so I would notice how far ahead people were.
Today I sat, reading an email from one of my friends, getting more and more upset about what I haven't done in life.
I have never really done a good grammar coarse.
I have not completed Algebra 1 yet, and I'm 15.
I have not traveled outside of the U.S.
I can't recite scripture very well.
I can't play a single instrument.
I can't tell you the name of each state.
I haven't done a lot of things that most people have.
But, you know what? I've done a lot of other thins that I never would have been able to do if I had spent my whole younger childhood doing the above things. And I'm only 15, I can still do them.
I may be behind other people, but I'm not going to let that stop me.
When my friends tell me they are almost done with Algebra, it hurts me, because I wish I had worked hard enough that I was that far ahead. But it shouldn't bother me, I really am right where God wants me, and I'm trying to get better at just accepting that fact that other people may be ahead, but its where they are supossed to be.
Have you ever felt behind?
Do you tend to act like it doesn't bother you, or show your emotion?