Feeling like a Failure
Sometimes I feel like a failure. This month, for example, I decided to yet again do Camp NaNo where I would be writing 10,000 words in thirty days. Super easy right? Well, I fell behind really fast because of a family event we had going on but I was fine, until I saw how far ahead all my friends were. I mean, I was just barely getting started at the end of the first week and some of them were halfway done. So, last night I spent a long time writing and got caught up. I was so proud, I wouldn’t be in the losers group after all! Then I saw it again, someone was almost done with their goal and all the accomplishment I had had suddenly felt puny. I mean, I was barely caught up and they were almost done. Why was I even bothering if I couldn’t keep up with other people? What if I finished after all of them, then I would look silly.
Then it hit me; why was I doing NaNo?
Was it to beat out everyone else with how fast I could write? No. It was because I had a story to tell and I wanted to challenge myself to write it faster than I had been.
So why was I so upset? Because I felt like being behind everyone else meant I was a failure.
It doesn’t matter what your behind on, school, word count, homework, cleaning, emails, projects, WHATEVER, its okay! Being behind someone does not make you a failure. It means you’re behind them, period.
In this life, there will always be someone ahead of you, pretty much no matter what you’re doing. But its okay, God has got you right where you need to be, and he’ll help you get where you need to be.
Jerimiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares The Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Your amazing no matter where you are.